Selena Gomez suffered from a “mental breakdown” during her 2016 “Revival” tour that made her feel like she wanted to die.
The “Who Says” singer performed 55 times before canceling the rest of the tour in August of that year to take care of her mental health.
“At one point she was like, ‘I don’t want to be alive right now. I don’t want to live,'” Gomez’s former assistant Theresa tells the camera in her new Apple documentary TV+, “My Mind and Me”.
“And I’m like, ‘Wait, what?'” Theresa recalled. “It was one of those times when you look her in the eye and there’s nothing there. It was just pitch dark. It’s so scary.
“You’re like, ‘F–k this. This needs to stop. We need to go home.
Gomez’s longtime friend Raquelle explained that Gomez, 30, heard all these voices in her head getting “louder and louder” which triggered a “psychotic break”.
The ‘Lose You to Love Me’ singer’s mother, Mandy Teefey, reveals she learned about her daughter’s breakdown via TMZ because the pop star wanted “nothing to do” with her.
Gomez was eventually diagnosed with bipolar disorder and checked into a mental health facility to treat her pain.
“I didn’t want to go to a mental hospital,” Gomez says. “I didn’t want to, but I didn’t want to be locked in my head anymore. I thought, ‘My life is over.’ I thought, ‘This is how I’m going to be forever.’ »
The “Wolves” singer, who suffers from lupus, suffered another nervous breakdown in October 2018 after his white blood cell count dropped due to complications from the autoimmune disease. She was rushed to Cedars-Sinai but asked to be released from the hospital and attempted to rip out her IVs.
She was admitted to an East Coast psychiatric facility where she received dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), which focuses on teaching patients mindfulness, healthy communication and behaviors, regulation emotions and how to better react to negative events.
Earlier that year, in February 2018, Gomez completed two weeks in rehab for depression and anxietymarking her third time in treatment for her issues, after which sources told Page Six she was avoid alcohol.
Gomez first sought treatment at the Dawn of the Meadows facility in Arizona in early 2014. Two years later, she verified at a Tennessee processing center focus on his mental health.
“My Mind and Me” premieres on Apple TV+ on November 4.